“You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.” ~ Johnny Depp.
In the last few episodes, Arnav’s vulnerability completely moved me and yesterday I could not stop the tears from flowing down my eyes.
One could see the pain in Arnav’s eyes not only because of the guilt that he was undergoing for what he said to Khushi but also because that is so not him.
Arnav is a man with a golden heart, but the flashes from his past gives us a hint that he is a bruised soul. Incidents from his past may have forced him to hide behind a mask, as he believes that portrayal of emotions is a sign of weakness. Under no circumstances will he allow the world to know the real him or play with his emotions.
However, Khushi Kumari Gupta from the very beginning had unknowingly stirred all these emotions in Arnav, which he thought he had buried over the years. How much ever he tried to remain unaffected by her presence, he had very little success in doing so. He hates Khushi not because she has wronged him but because she in some way or the other compels him to confront his inner self and triggers his conscience to acknowledge what is right and wrong.
On the face of it Arnav may be a strong, powerful, shrewd and a hardhearted man but deep down he is extremely vulnerable who is prone to all human instincts and emotions like any one of us and in Khushi’s presence they surface easily.
I strongly believe that one can fake to the world but not to oneself. Arnav in trying to do so is not only hurting all those around him but is “harming” himself. Probably he is one such person who is in dire need of a companion but he has completely isolated himself and become a "LONER." He is neither able to let go of things nor is he able to forgive himself easily. While apologizing to Khushi was the need of the hour, it also revealed the vulnerable side of him, which he was so desperately trying to hide.
Every time I see Arnav and the pain that he has been living with all these years, my heart bleeds for him. While he has locked himself within the darkness of his own beliefs and insecurities, Khushi could be the key to his heart and be the one to set him “FREE.”